"Yes, why don't you set the table, the foods about done. I was just about to call you."

We enjoyed the dinner in the dinette, and afterwards over a cup of coffee I brought up the subject of my education.

"For a while, I think that its best if you just read and rest. You can walk in the garden, sew, knit and just become familiar with the place and more relaxed. I know you are excited, but you haven't acquired the inner grace of a girl, yet. You have to become sure and confident of yourself, so that you can walk, and sit, without each motion being pronounced. I'll help you with this and give you some ballet exercises that you can do. I do them every day, just to keep my tummy firm and in shape. Mostly just concentrate on being you, and develop your per- sonality. There is a good selection of clothes in your room, and if you want to borrow anything of mine, go right ahead. The most important thing is for you to do it yourself."

That set the pattern for the next few weeks. I read all the fashion magazines, trying to learn styles and matching colors, I set up a sche- dule of exercises, and walking. I cooked every other meal, and experi- mented with new recipes. In the evening, Jean and I worked on a sleeve- less shift in silk print for me. She helped me with the pattern and gave advice, but I did all of the sewing, and adjustment. In the end, I finished it by myself, not allowing her to look, and modeled it at dinner, wear- ing the pink mohair sweater that I had finished, with it.

"That looks just fine, Brenda. But one thing, its just too pretty to wear around the house. When was the last time you were out?"

"When we went to the movies, last week."

"Lets get out tonite and show that dress off!"

"Where?"

"Over at the hospital "O" club! Can't tell how a dress really looks till you see how the guys appreciate it."

"Jean, I... I can't go there."

"Why not? Are you still thinking you're really not a girl?"

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